Love is patience
Love is kind?
Love is ...Pain. Lots and lots and lots of pain. To leave the other you go through pain, to love another you experience pain. Why do we crave love soo much and do all we can to attract it when it brings us a lot of anxieties, heartbreaks and unnecessary stress?
Why do we love love but it doesn't love us?.
I feel like I am back floating in that darkness again. My time has stopped. It feels like it won't continue any further . I don't want to wake up..I am tired..I feel soo exhausted .My heart feels like it has been running a never ending marathon on a track filled with nothing but hurt and failure .Is it really this hard to just simply be in love?
"Akilah..can you hear me! " Within the void surrounding me, I can hear Rain call out to me. I want to respond but I currently can't, I am awake but my body is too exhausted to move.
"He should wake up soon, I didn't think he will take so long to get through the shredding but I guess I miscalculated the time. " I hear Sky say , her voice sounding even further than that of Rain.I guess She must be standing somewhere next to the door.
" He will wake up.In any case he was cleared so when he does get up pass this news to him for me, he can get going as soon as he wants to." This time I am very certain this voice belongs to Drago, why does he want me to leave soo soon? Did he hang on too long and won't be able to resist the urge to rip me into pieces and eat me up?!.
" Okay..I will go to the kitchen for a bit. Call me if anything happens. I guess you would like something to drink too?"I hear sky say and a few minutes later two people leave the room.
"You can open your eyes, they are gone." Rain says as soon as the door shuts.
I slowly open my eyes and check the room. Coast clear. "How did you know?" I ask Rain with groggy voice that is a clear indication that I have just woken up.
" When Chevaz said you could leave you flinched, which means you were awake and could hear us." Rain says as he goes to the door locking it and slowly approaches me.
" Why did you lock the door?" I act oblivious.It is only obvious that Sky might come budging through it again disturbing us.
"No reason" Rain says with a flirty tone, his lip pulled into a perfect smirk that suddenly got my body hot again. Not the I am dying hot, the I want me in you now kind of hot.He goes closer to the bed and jumps on top of me, I don't know where I got the strength from but I switch our positions and have him lie under me, we lock eyes and for a whole second and a half we don't say a word to each other. I get lost in his eyes yet again and suddenly the pain I felt earlier feels worth it.
(I want to feel Rain, all of him. I love feeling him , I love the sound of his breath , I love everything about him!.)
" I love you too" Rain says suddenly breaking me from my love locked brain. His words erupting an overflow of emotions in me that the only way I can respond is by kissing him. Rain opens his mouth for me and the two of us play a game of love that only two are supposed to.I remove my shirt and tug at his to command him to get rid of it and he obliges. I kiss at his neck and leave a trail of kisses all the way to his firm chest. He pulls me into himself by my neck and our lips meet again..I need his scent all over me, I want his aroma to engulf me soo much that other wolves get lost trying to track him only to find me. I want him..to be mine . I know all too well than to just mark him, he is kind of human so I might kill him.Come to think of it..I have never seen his wolf. .but.that is for another day, right now I just want to enjoy his embrace and warmth.
After our little make out session, which didn't end up going further to the peek of the mountain. Rain and I lie in bed wrapped around each others arms.I am soo happy I met him. I feel as I was meant to love him. Leo has never held me as he felt uncomfortable with the fact that we were both kind of the same height.I can't believe I ever tried to make us work. Then again, thanks to him I found love again.Even with all situations and scenarios tying him to me , I am glad I finally found the strength to leave him while it was still early.
"Where were you?" I can't help stop the words flow out of my mouth like they have been resting at the tip of my tongue ..just patiently waiting to be released.
"Whats this?...Akilah Moonlight was worried about me?" He says with a cheeky grin. Another expression I now know he can make.I hold him tighter into my arms and shower his face with kisses.Rain tries to wiggle his way out but I toughen my grip. " If you don't tell me I won't stop" I say to him.
" Okay..okay!.I was out picking some wild cherries for you. You said you like them and your mother always made some marmalade with them for you so I thought I could try that just to make you feel a bit home" He says while still trying loosing my hold on him.I couldn't help but give him one last kiss on his soft lips just to savour his taste, for a boy raised in hell he sure is as sweet as heavens drip honey.
That evening Rain and I stayed together in bed the whole time, Mavis was kind enough to bring some food for us and check up on me. We then spent the rest of our time talking and sharing information about ourselves and unrelated topics of the little things around us. I now know his full name is Rain Chevaz, he is the younger step brother of Drago .He does not have an interest to find his biological parents and was born on the same day as me.
There is nothing that shouts fated and destiny than same birthdays right?..He was designed to be mine from the very beginning.
I also learnt that Rain is vegan because he hates the smell of meat, especially raw meat, he loves the colour red and loves gardening and sparing with his brother. Talking about his brother, I heard he had a mate who died under unknown circumstances and he is still currently mourning her death.This is apparently the reason why he is so cold and always seems to want to attack people.I will take this information like a grain of salt just to stay on the safe side.
he wouldn't really kill his brother's lover right?.
Oh he also told me about Sky , she loved and took care of him like her own child and always used her magic on kids who bullied him for being human..apparently she even gave one of the bullies a pigs tail that still hasn't gone away to this day.
I also had a chance to share with Rain everything about myself , who I am , where I live and everything I have experienced with Leo till the night I left him. I told him about my mother who is a great believer and would always put her God before my feelings, my father who is always away working with my brother who wants to take over leadership of our oil export company once he is done graduating in two months or so. I tell him everything excluding nothing. I want him to know everything there is about me.
That night , Rain decided he will stay overnight with me ..I happily agreed. Why should I refuse such a gold opportunity? ..Before going into bed again, we take chances going into the shower and I wait for him so we can brush our teeth together. Once we are done we hop into bed and let the fairies of the night carry us into a world I hope even with my eyes closed...
I will see him.