Alijah appeared beaming, and I had made him like that. My heart throbbed, racing faster with each passing moment. Seeing him like this made me realize how beautiful he was. Mom was right when she said he was the second prettiest Lycan she had ever seen.
Dad being the first, of course. Though to me, he was nothing more than an old wolf compared to Alijah. However, I couldn't deny that Dad had his moments. After all, I was closest to him and my brothers out of everyone in my family.
Ah... Alijah has a beauty mark right under his right eye. One that I hadn't noticed before. Hey... I want your heart, your soul, your everything. I... wish to claim you for myself. Can I?
But... my happiness didn't matter. I wanted to heal him. That was all that mattered.
"Because..." I stopped.
The words I wanted to say flowed into my mind.
Because I love you, Alijah, but you're never meant to be mine. Because the moment she comes back, no matter what form, you'll embrace her. At the same time, I'll have to let go for you to be happy. Because I love you so much that it makes me want to murder everyone who would dare hurt you, even myself.
I would kill myself if it made you happy. Did you know that? It probably should've been on that first day, huh? But if I died, then you would've probably been hurt or worse. Because I want to be in your world—something I can never have because someone else is already there.
By the gods, I love you.
"Because?" Alijah traced my lips with his thumb.
I love you!
I simpered in return, unable to answer what I started. I should've, but if I did, it would solidify my love for him in a way I couldn't control. So, instead, I turned it into something.
"Because I probably could never mark you as you did to me, Alijah-tan." I tried to make it more superficial than it was.
Alijah chuckled, pressing his forehead against mine. This was too warm.
Please... be the usual grump... Tell me to screw off somewhere else.
"Hah, you want to try?" He suddenly proposed, prompting my jaw to drop.
You'd let me do that? Isn't it something Lilith can only do? Although... come to think of it, he probably had many Lycan girls do that to you during captivity. Mira was the name of one of them, right?
The one who marked him so severely, she used men to steal away every ounce of good that was in him. That was probably his most recent sex-related experience in all those years he was trapped.
I... want to wash it away. No! Control, Rem... Control yourself!
"No, I couldn't possibly..." I trailed off, tugging away from him.
Alijah didn't let me get far, though. Suddenly, he shoved his thumb into my mouth, inspecting my fangs. They weren't as sharp as a normal Lycan, but they could deal some damage.
"Try it, Rem. Bite me." He smirked, cheeks rosy.
I shifted my gaze towards the side, shaking my head. "There's no point. You'll heal, and I don't want to hurt you."
He sighed, grabbing the back of my head and pushing my face towards his shoulder.
"Rem, do it," Alijah continued to entice me.
I didn't know how much longer I could hold back. He didn't know how much I wanted to try it. To wash away everything that bitch had done to him.
No, to mark you as mine. But is it okay for me to do it?
"But I..." I mumbled.
It can't be right. I'm not her.
My chest was on his, holding a space between us. He was too strong to get away from. I could have ordered him to back off if I wanted to, but I desired him.
No, I...
"Do it as hard as you can, sweetheart." He murmured into my ear before licking my nape.
I couldn't handle it anymore. The temptation was taking over. I was about to lose it, but not without one more attempt to stop it.
"You didn't do it like that!" I yelped when Alijah nipped me.
Every slight movement made the water glow under us. He chuckled, gently nibbling on my shoulder, close to where he had bitten me. Shivers ran down my body when he pulled away, doing the same to my ear.
Stopping, his breath landed on my neck again.
This is torture.
"No, I didn't do it hard, but my fangs are sharper than yours, little Luma. My skin is also a lot thicker. So... bite as you mean it. I won't let you go until you mark me tonight." Alijah whispered.
I couldn't resist the temptation any longer as it felt like my heart was in my throat, wishing to come out.
If you allow me to, I'll archive this memory in the most precious place I can ever put it. Yes, along with every other memory I get to have with you. All so I can relive it when you… No longer want me.
With a brief hesitation, I bit down on the teasing wolf's shoulder, prompting a groan from his lips as a metallic taste flooded my mouth at that moment, too.
"Good girl, now... suck on my skin like you mean it, or it won't leave a mark." He instructed.
Before doing as he said, I licked the wound much as he had done to me. The taste of his blood, although metallic, was also rather sweet. Lycans used to eat their enemies. So, perhaps that was part of what I was experiencing.
An instinct, much like my...
Much to my surprise, my bite stayed visible on the wolf's skin as fresh blood trailed down his skin. If anything else had caused that, it would've healed right away. He let me go free from his grasp so I could mark him as he had marked me.
Embarrassment filled me when I slowly pressed my lips to his chest. Fearing I would try to run away again, he grabbed hold of my head, again preventing me from any escape as his other hand secured my hips to him.
Letting go of the useless, swelling emotions, I caressed his chest as he did to me. A low hum came from him, holding me tighter to him as I continued to pop my lips on parts of his skin, leaving behind the same marks he did to me.
Getting to the little dark nob on his pectus, I licked before sucking on it, triggering him to shiver a bit.
"Rem," Alijah breathed, loosening his grip on me.
I couldn't stop caressing him, though. It was as if a box of emotions flooded me again, leaving me wanting to hear his adorable, husky voice.
Your moans... Please give me more of everything you offer.
Unable to take it any longer, he tugged me to face him, biting his lip as his eyes shimmered brightly.
Ah… Did I overdo it?
"If you keep doing that, I'll pounce on you again." He warned, setting my heart into a storm.
Huh? Did I turn you on? I… didn't think that was possible. Ah, I'm glad.
"Pounce me?" I mumbled, reaching to his cheek as he traced his thumb on my bottom lip again.
"Yes... I want to fuck you again, Rem. That's what I mean." Alijah clarified as his gaze shifted into a predatory one.
A soft smile formed on my lips, pushing myself against him.
I don't care. No, I want you to do it.
My entire being yearned for it.
"Then... do it." I simpered, prompting his cheeks to turn redder as he shook his head before suddenly dunking himself into the water.
Damn it, did I say something wrong?
He surfaced soon after, picking me up so my legs were around his waist again. The water made it easy for him to hold me up, not that he needed it. His wet hair got stuck into his skin while he held me close. Our lips hovered over one another as this tease was too much for me.
The marks I had made on him were still visible, yet I didn't know how long they would last.
"I think I ran empty earlier, though. So, I'll probably shoot blanks into you," Alijah informed me, prompting me to wince.
When I was with him, an offspring was the last thing I considered. I wanted him and only him. Baby-making or not, I would try to give him anything that he wanted. I couldn't hold my emotions back, even if it meant losing myself.
"I... don't care about that. All I want is you, Alijah. Not your sperm or—" I stopped, noticing I had slipped.
My cheeks turned a shade of red that could rival blood itself. My wolf also reacted the same, though a smile rose on his lips, one that I never expected to see. It was full of something I didn't dare to label it.
Oh, dear... How… How will I…
"D-Did you know you weren't fertile before the blood moon? You should also know that it's hard for me to get pregnant. So, you could fuck me all you want, and I probably won't get knocked up. One perk of being—" I ranted until Alijah shut me up by crashing his lips into mine.
His tongue invaded my mouth as a soft whine left me. I couldn't help myself but respond to him.
Ah... I'll have to go far away from you once Lilith returns. Will she be angry if I stole a little piece of you for myself? Or... all of you?
He drew away from me to breathe, leaving me a hot mess as saliva dripped down my chin.
"Knocked up? Is that what they call it now? You're foolish, aren't you?" Alijah chuckled, causing my heart to flutter like a butterfly in the sky.
Why... how... I need to know.
"W-What?" I mumbled.
He snickered again.
"Telling that to a man is like telling him to fuck you nonstop. It doesn't matter if I'm fertile or not. You should be warier of your words, little Rem." He teased, causing me to growl.
"I—" This wolf wouldn't let me get another word in before he tugged me into another quick kiss before drawing away.
Tugging me for another quick kiss, he pulled away from me soon after.
"Though... It's a good thing I didn't conceive because of that." Alijah added, leaning to brush his lips with mine again as the desire to kiss him grew, but he wasn't done.
"How lucky was I to have you, of all people, to be stuck to? You're so different from everyone I have met, Rem. You're something that I want to taint so badly." He growled playfully, grabbing my cheeks with both of his hands.
Luckily, my legs were still on his waist as my arms held me to him, tightly coiled on his neck. This was dangerous, though. I was about to slip again and couldn't afford it anymore.
Please... don't slam my heart open to crush it later.
"Is it because I'm a Silver Fang?" I tried to shift the conversation in one last ditch to turn things around.
Alijah shook his head, kissing me again; this time, he didn't tug away until my mind was nothing more than a muddled mess.
Just where is all this energy coming from?
"No, stupid girl, because you're you. I don't care where you come from or who birthed you. You're the first to make me want to give this world a shot. The first person I wanted to be marked by. If... there's even the possibility that more people like you are around." He paused, biting into his lips before facing me head-on.
"Maybe it isn't such a terrible place. Though... I'm not fully sure of it myself. So... you'll have to show me more of it, Rem. Show me more of this beautiful world that you live in." Alijah declared, slamming my heart wide open.
I couldn't hold my emotions back anymore.
No, we haven't met for that long yet… I… You are everything I dreamed of and more.
A more minor chuckle came out of him before he bit his lip. "I kind of want to make you cry, Rem, but not of sadness or pain. It's a first for me."
Eh? Can you choose me? No... No... can you? No... my time with you doesn't compare to Lilith's. I know that, but… can I have you for the time she isn't here? Please… I'll give you back to her when she comes. I promise. No… That's wrong.
"Alijah... what about—" I attempted to defuse the moment, but he stopped my words with another short kiss, fluttering my heart.
"Don't... We'll cross that bridge when we get there, okay?" My wolf purred, tracing his hands down my back before clasping my bum and slipping into me again.
Ripples of pleasure and ecstasy filled me as I threw myself into a feverous kiss with him. Every movement that came from our fucking caused waves to shine around us.
Ah… You win.
I allowed myself to be carried by the moment of passion without caring if Alijah was doing this to get me to bend to him or if it was for something else. He was evil, but not the type of malevolence everyone thought him to be.
At least to me, you're much more. Even though all that awaits me is agony when Lilith comes back, for now, I'll enjoy these moments with you. I'll indeed show you everything the world can offer you.
Unable to hold my feelings back, I let loose everything. Tugging away from the kiss, saliva connected us again as it dripped down our chins. At that moment, I hugged him so tightly as his moans hit my ear.
"You're so tight on me, Rem." He breathed, thrusting himself a little faster than he was while locking lips with him.
My entire body was moving to his rhythm as his heat seeped into my skin, leaving me broken.
"I love you," I suddenly confessed, tears streaking down my cheeks.
My words triggered Alijah to stop, and he slowly separated himself enough to see my face. His eyes shimmered brightly as his body started to give off the same hue. A soft hum left me as I traced my fingers on his lips, waiting for him to say something, but all he did was gaze at me with wide eyes.
Ah… Did Shade steal your tongue, love?
"I love you. Alijah, I adore you." I professed to him again.
Upon hearing a second time, he winced before kissing me lightly on my lips.
"I... I... say it again." He whispered,
I closed my eyes, knowing I had lost my heart.
To you.
Soon, an agony would come that I couldn't escape from, but I would show him everything I wanted to give him, which included my beating heart that he held in his hands.
"I love you," I continued to repeat.
Alijah's cheeks were dark red before he started to move again, this time more passionately than before. Under the moonlight, we embraced until he washed away my world. He was my one and only true soul mate.
If only it were true for you, too.
Aunty Amelia and Grandma Siva were both victims of this emotion surging within me. It seemed we Silver Fang women always had the short stick for love. Both their mates had deceived them because of circumstances. However, Alijah was cheating on his true love with me.
Ah... Why... does it have to be like this? Why can't it be me?
Even though I was being flooded with kisses and pleasure, Alijah couldn't wash away the dread settling within my heart.
My agony… can't be tamed no matter how many times you hold me.
Fear filled me as I waited for the day when Alijah finally chose Lilith over me.