Is she into me? What does she like? What do I do when I'm in love? Why...does my chest feel tight??
These are the various questions and thoughts one comes across when they are in love , or perhaps developing feelings for their crush. But who knows? Afterall anyone could fall in love with the right or the wrong person. Will they be the right one to give my love? Or will they be the wrong one to fall in love with? Such thoughts cruised the mind of the young guy named Venhen.
Long ago , there lived a nice but humble family in the city of Texas. It was but a small family in comparison to many others. Consisting only of two parents and one son , this was but a small family.
Enter the lives of the family named Jacksons. Yes , Jacksons indeed. The Jackson family was a middle class family earning enough to live a good and comfortable life in the city of Austin. The mother named Alva was always nice , caring and enthusiastic mother. This personality of hers naturally brought about many friends to her! Meanwhile the father named Barbeque was a cold but caring father too , who was always entangled and busy with his work. Never caring too less or too much about his family , he set the balance between work and family and thus thrived in it. Alva , on the other hand worked in a modern hospital facility as a nurse. Even though she too had but a busy schedule , she would make alot of time for her family and much together love and support them more than barbeque , the father did. Through the hot summers of Texas and the arid humidity of Austin grew up their son named Venhen. Venhen was like his father , barbeque , except for the fact that he only seemed cold but he cared just as much as his mother and often he would be really attached to them. Mamas boy , one would say but how could he not love his parents!
Such was the logic of Venhen who grew up in such a loving household. All members of the family supported each other through thick and thin and were generally kind. So , it would seem like the perfect family. But it was not.
Why?
Well that is because Venhen and his mother Alva would often see their father come home late and more so , randomly dissappear on weekends.
Oh my God..what??
Yes. Barbeque just seemed to 'randomly' dissappear on weekends for work purposes. Ofcourse
That's a lie. Who works on a Sunday?
Yes. Barbeque justified it saying he works for an multinational company and so on and so forth. But he was pretty much getting wasted night after night and seeing different ladies weekend on weekends. Alva noticed this behavior in her husband and she confronted him about it.
Oh my God...what happened then?
When Alva confronted Barbeque , he deflected all of her arguments and pretty much continued his behaviour. Alva was angry! Face contorted , nose reddened and eye with a cut sharp stare , she demanded that he come clean. Through several empty threats , which Alva was good at , Barbeque did finally admit that he was cheating on Alva with a lady at his work.
What on earth Barbeque??? How can you just so casually cheat on your wife?
Alva jumped! Striken , shaking...! Heart beat thumping and a shocking expression written all over her body , she-
"I do NOT want to live with you anymore! You son of a bitch! You cheater! You liar! How...dare you even do this behind my back???"
Angered by it all , Alva decided to divorce him. But she couldn't make up her mind to do that. She truly loved Barbeque and he was the only man who ever understood her. She felt her heart in pain, writhe with fear and striken by cold sweats of the future , she after a few days apologized to Barbeque for lashing out at him.
What...? But it's not your fault. He cheated on you so he should apologize.
Barbeque then apologized to Alva after Alva apologized to him and well...after a little while they....
"Oh baby....Im so sorry for everything, you know Alva , I will always love you from here on out."
"You too my darling....listen. Don't ever cheat on me again okay? I care dearly for you and Venhen"
"Yes honey. How could I ever leave you."
Then his lips moist and face reddened , his eyes roamed her face and she blushed.
"You...oh my barbeque..."
"Shhh..."
Alva slowly touched his hand and leaned in to touch his lips with hers. With the kiss they slid against the couch and their hands started feeling everywhere around and about as they got feelings splashing out and in all over the place.
So...they finally made up , and so things continued normally for this family. Ofcourse , there was always drama every once in a while but which family doesn't have its drama.
Slowly but surely as time went on...Venhen passed from school and eventually entered college. However , Venhen seemed cold like his father , not talking much , not doing much but just being there , like a background character. Even till this point into the story , Venhen does seem like that. But that isn't the truth. Venhen suffered from heavy social anxiety and shyness. Yes. He seemed cold but it was actually the fact that his mind would freeze and perhaps stop him from talking much when he was with another person. Thus , unable to make much friends throughout school and highschool , he was somewhat lonely and even a little depressed. His parents noticed this and tried to help but it was to no avail. They suggested therapy but he sternly denied it.
Why did he deny therapy? Isn't that good for him?
He denied therapy because he felt that if he did go there , his vulnerabilities would he exposed and as such , he refused to open up and bottled everything to himself. He never wanted people to pity him or even look down upon him. Despite his struggles with trying to be social , he saw it as a matter of integrity and dignity to not seek help when needed for.
That's very strange.
Yes. It really was. This toxic mindset prevented Venhen from getting help. Owing to this behavior , he was bullied alot in school and especially for some reason , by girls too. They would often pick on him for being the stereotypical quiet guy and even make jokes about him being a stalker or that he's shy guy who's into porn. That type of guy.
Although, Venhen was into porn. He loved masturbating alot and well , he was very shy and blushed alot when he met girls. His only type in women were those who were nice to him and those whom he could feel emotionally attached to , like as if to say , their kindness if it managed to touch his heart , move his soul , make him shed tears , he would fall head over heels with them! Despite his upsetting porn and masturbation addiction , he had a sweet and caring personality where he wanted to have genuine friends. Friends of his age. But sadly though, instead of friends he got bullies instead. This pattern of bullying and coming home just to sleep and waste himself , study somewhat close to exams had worn on him as time went on. Seeming somewhat fatigued and depressed , he'd just rely on his addictions to make him feel any sort of happiness. After finishing highschool and entering college , his attitude remained the same. Going to college , seeing people not caring about him , social anxiety preventing him from speaking much or opening up about himself , spending time randomly in some corner of the college probably binge watching shows, coming back home and sleeping and finally repeating this same cycle, this was his routine.
Very loserish of a person, Venhen was now nothing like his father who was more confident , cheerful and charismatic as well. But oh well , everyone is their own person in the end.
Through Venhen's college life , his father was mostly away from the family for "work purposes" and well it was mostly just Venhen and his mother Alva. Alva with her caring and kind personality had this habit of going out of her way and helping people , especially her friends. That was how she made friends with Mary.
Mary was a single and divorced wife of a rich businessman whom she had divorced because her husband cheated on her several times. Painful and pitiful, she lived on her own for a while. She was the colleague of Alva in the hospital that she was working in and since they both were social, they gradually became friends and naturally even more closer because Mary at the time was very unstable mentally and Alva provided her the mental support she needed. This mental support caused Mary to be attached to Alva as a person. She just loved being around Alva. Due to her support , with days , weeks and months passing by , Mary gradually recovered from her mental state that was traumatized and regained her beautiful personality. However, since Alva herself was but a good friend and not professional help , she couldn't really heal Mary completely but pretty much just fix her on the surface. What lied deeper was the trauma of a 36 year of Mary having been married for a long 13 years and then getting divorced. Naturally this would take alot of help and therapy to recover from. How could Alva herself help her alone? This was a major issue in Mary's life as time and again , she would experience flashbacks of her past marriage and suddenly feel cold sweat and panic across her body.
"My...life has changed..."
"It's not the same....as before...."
"I....there's no one...with me....no one to love me....."
"I can't beleive I'm actually alone...."
"I miss my life, this new and silent but calm life.....haunts me....I...I...want everything to get better.....please..."
Such thoughts coarsed Mary's mind as she could still time and again experience the shock of not being in a relationship anymore....
Ofcourse , Alva realized all of these issues and listened to Mary and helped her.
"Mary...my dear. Listen to me. If you want happiness again , just take your time with things and relax a little more than usual.. honey you deserve it"
"But Mary.. I...I....don't know what to do in life anymore....without my husband and me being single....I....I feel as if the world has turned its back to me..."
"Mary...my dear....why don't you stay with me for a little while. You need someone to support you at these harsh times don't you? I will console and care for you...if that helps you sweetheart."
"Alva....are you sure? I mean...well...I could but...don't you already have your son to take care of..?"
"Oh sweet Mary. My son is currently in his third year of college. He doesn't need much parenting. Besides , I'm sure he will be okay even if you stay at my house and I help you."
"Alva...you go out of your way to help people ...why...?"
"Because , I just happen to care about you alot silly! I mean all of those times we spent together, do you really think I'd give up on you when you're struggling in life? I'm here for you sweetheart. Just stay with me for the timebeing okay?"
"Alva...I.. understand. I don't know how to thank you but I can say that you're beautiful in personality and appearance. No one I've met in my life is like you."
"Oh my....not even my husband complements me that way , Mary. Why ,you are beautiful like a chrysanthemum and energetic yourself. I think you're quite the spectacle Mary."
Both Mary and Alva blushed. Complementing each other back and forth , the afternoon became a good therapy session for the broken hearted Mary. As such , Mary finally decided to move in with the Jacksons for a while. Till she got better. So the next Tuesday, she finished packing her belongings and went to Alva's residence. Ringing the bell upon coming in contact with the entrance of the small villa , Alva immediately rushed to open the door.
"Ah...good to see you Mary. Come in and make yourself at home."
"Sorry to trouble you like this Alva , if there's anything I can help with , I surely will."
"Oh darling , there's no need to worry about that for now. Just take your time and live life okay?"
"You're right...Alva."
Mary settled herself in the house and unpacked her belongings in a separate room. She then decided to go to the hall and drink some tea with Alva. Taking subtle footsteps into the hall and seating herself with Alva opposite to her , she sipped her tea with elegance and conversated with Alva as she did.
After a little while , Venhen overheard the voice of a lady while he was playing genshin impact in his room. So , wondering who could it possibly be , slowly went he and peeked over close to the entrance of the large hall and he was shocked!
"Oh my....what a beautiful lady."
He instantly noticed Mary's beautiful appearance. Her green emerald eyes with long luscious red hair and a smile worth a thousand butterflies...his heart jumped! As he kept peeking , his degenerate brain did not notice that Mary stared right at him back!
"Ehh????!!! She...she noticed me...??"
"Oh..? Is that your son , Alva?"
"Ah...Mary. Yes that's my son Venhen. Venhen come here and say hi to my friend Mary."
Thus... he had no choice but to introduce himself or make light of himself in front of this new woman.
"H...hi..my name is Venhen...Jackson. Currently doing my college and majoring in psychology.....3rd year" blushed Venhen.
"Hmm...3rd year? I see...how's college , Venhen?"
"O-oh that....right it's going well"
As he said this , his mother suddenly interrupted.
"Going well? Sigh. Mary , he has alot of issues. He is very shy and cannot make friends and moreover he likes to talk to himself. You see , my son is very strange."
Just as she said this , Venhen got embarrased.
"Mom! Stop...it's not like that!"
Then Mary laughed along this silly banter between mother and son.
"It's alright sweetheart. Everything takes time , I'm sure you will make friends along the way. If it's any helping Alva , I will try to help Venhen and be his friend so that he learns to be confident. Is that alright Alva?"
"Yes Mary. That would really help. I worry about his future honestly. How will he do anything if he's not communicating with people."
As such , Mary decided to help Venhen overcome his lack of communication problem. Thus as days passed by , Mary would often try to help Venhen and she would pretty much spend time with him. Venhen would feel shy , blushy , awkward and even strangely....turned on..!
What??
It's true! Venhen never talked to women and he didn't know how to even make friends or even treat them. He just avoided everyone. So when Mary , the 36yr old beautiful woman came to his life to help him , it struck his heart and he gradually fell for her.
"My goodness....oh lord have mercy. What did I do to deserve such a loving and caring person in my life." Such thoughts would be pondered upon in Venhen's mind.
One morning while Mary was in the kitchen making breakfast for Alva and her son , she was humming to herself as she was in a good mood. Venhen heard this and he entered the kitchen.
"Oh hey there silly. Whatcha doing out here?"
"O-oh hi Miss Mary. I...well...wanted to drink some water."
"You can just call me Mary. I do not mind. Gosh, you are so shy and shaky when you meet me. It's sort of cute though. Guys like you will be taken advantage of you know."
"O-oh...yes...I do know...Mary."
"Oh...do you now? Hm? I bet you can't even talk to a girl."
Suddenly he blushed.
"See? Just the thought of me talking to you about girls has got you all flustered. Shy cherry boy. Whatever will I do with you. Hm?"
She suddenly went close to him.
"You know...you're very adorable when you act so submissive. Keep being that way."
"H-huh!!" Blushed Venhen.
They both then talked deeply and it got venhen all reddened up. Just as she was talking to him , suddenly she started to cry.
What...?? Why did she suddenly cry?
Mary broke down emotionally and cried because she got a random flashback of her past marriage with her husband and it made her go blank in her emotions. This made her go into a watery turmoil of tears.
Upon seeing this , Venhen slowly leaned in
"Hey...Mary...um...I'm sorry for whatever you went through. I...I am here for you...just like you try to help me...in my communication skills."
"Sweetheart...you would never understand my pain. My husband cheated on me and backstabbed me. Do you really think I can take it up...? I....I can't!"
As she said this...she cried more and with it , Venhen slowly hugged Mary and provided a support of sorts.
The next morning when Mary and Venhen met again in the kitchen... she immediately rushed to him.
"Oh hey...Venhen. Sorry you had to see that. I....was quite a mess. But....I'm really happy you supported me. It means alot to a divorced woman you know...thank you darling."
"A-ah ofcourse Mary...I am happy to help you."
"Oh sweetheart. You are so kind. Just like your mother. From now on , I will always support you too. Whatever it could be , I am there for you."
And so , Venhen and Mary trauma bonded over their past time and again and they grew closer.
Sometimes when lunch would arrive and they would eat together , venhen and Mary would sit next to each other. One day , Alva noticed this
"Oh..? Venhen. Looks like you seem to be chatting well with my friend Mary here. Normally you do not talk to anyone much. Even me. But here you're talking to Mary. That's a good thing. You're slowly healing as well hm?"
"A-ah mom...yes.." blushed Venhen
Then spoke Mary.
"Yes. I will help Venhen because he has a personality just like yours , Alva. How could I not help him."
The day went on and continued their conversation.
Ofcourse , through all of this time , Venhen aged 21 was really enjoying what was going on at the house.
Whenever he saw Mary , suddenly he'd feel his chest tighten , face reddened and feel a little hot at the sight of Mary giving him emotional support. Whenever she extended her kindness to him , it would turn him on.
Oh dear....what in the world Venhen..?
One day when he returned from college, he went to his bathroom. As he slowly entered there , Mary noticed and greeted him. He too , greeted her and closed the door of the bathroom.
Inside , he locked the door and undid himself slowly and then sat on the toilet seat.
"Ah...Mary...please talk to me with your kind words and give me emotional support...Ah Mary...nnngh...mmnh....gnnnh"
He got strangely turned on and started to masturbate from thinking about her in such sentences.
"Mary...Mary...Mary....ah~!!"
While he was in the process , Mary was mopping the floors of the house and well , she finally came close to the bathroom.
When she did , she wondered why he was taking a while to come out and slowly took slow steps and stood near the door ready to knock. As she was about to , she heard some noises and moans.
"Huh...what the..? What on earth is he doing inside the toilet..?"
"Wait a minute..."
She took a step closer and glued her ear to the door.
Oh my....
"What the...those sounds....is he...masturbating...?"
Venhen was completely engrossed in self pleasure and took a little long to settle himself down again. Just as he got done and took a bath, he came out and he saw Mary.
"Oh...! Mary...oh...oh right you mopped the floors and you were going to do the bathroom as well...I'm so sorry...I took a while in there bathing."
"It's fine dear. I know what you did there. You would take a while anyway."
"Huh???????!"
Mary blushed and spoke
"I know what you did. It's okay."
"Oh my...."
Venhen suddenly roamed his hand around his crotch....
"Gosh....you're so silly and cute Venhen. I like you when you act so shy and cutesy."
"Oh my...."
Both of them blushed.
Suddenly came in Alva into the scene.
"Hey...! You two , dinner is ready. Come and eat!"
They both went to eat dinner at the dining table.
Just as they were eating , Venhen accidentally dropped some sauce on his jeans.
"Oh gosh....I think I spilled some."
Mary noticed and she smiled.
"Ohh...?"
She noticed that his mom wasn't around and thus slowly put her hand on his thigh and wiped the sauce off it.
"Ahh...!"
"Oh? Are you alright , Vennie?"
"O-oh yes I'm fine..haha"
"Why did you just moan though?"
"Oh...that...ohh sorry I was just zoned out haha lol..."
"Hmmm...? Is that so..." she smirked.
As their to and fro plays continued , days passed by.
Venhen cherished and enjoyed being around Mary and Mary cherished and enjoyed being around Venhen. Their connections and trauma bonding with a slight touch of romance made the right balance for both sides to have plays from time to time. Usually their meetings were mostly in either the kitchen , dining table or the hall. Though , one day...it even happened in his room...! One of the days , Mary prepared lunch for Vennie and decided that instead of calling him to the dining table this time , she would give it to him in his room. So she carried a plate of food and slowly knocked on his door.
"Sweetheart. It's me , Mary."
"Ah Mary...yes come in."
"Okay dear."
She came in and while she did...she suddenly slipped! The food splattered over his floor and she hit her behind on the floor.
"Oh my Mary are you okay..????"
"Yes I'm fine...dear. This is quite a mess."
Just as he got down to help her...they both were really close to each other and he looked at the ketchup sauce some of it landed on her chest. Up and close , he couldn't help but peak.
"A-ah sorry for that...Mary..I didn't mean to..!"
"Sweetheart it's alright"
She slowly adjusted her upper clothing making her chest jiggle a little.
"Hmm..like the view sweetie?"
"Oh..oh my...a woman...so close...I..."
He fainted.
"Oh my God what??? Vennie...! Vennie!! WAKE up!!!"
After a while he woke up.
"Ah...I'm so sorry Mary , I just , well"
He blushed.
"Wwhen...you got close like that I...I...couldn't handle it like my heart strangely tightened...!"
Then she blushed.
"Oh...? I see. So I had that effect on you huh. That's...."
She smirked.
"Quite cute."
She then leaned in to hug him.
"Listen darling , you may panic but don't worry , I will save you from whatever you're in because good boys like you deserve to be loved. Isnt that right?"
She booped his nose.
"Y-yes! Mary!"
So many incidents and so many interactions....what could even occur more at this point...?
"Is she into me? What does she like? What do I do when I'm in love? Why...does my chest feel tight??" Such thoughts soared Vennie's mind like lightning.
Day and night , he couldn't stop thinking about this woman...!
"Mary...how caring and kind...the way she touches my heart....I just can't...help but...nngh....wow....I....am such a mess..."
"Mary is my therapy , my friend , my queen , my everything....I really really like her..."
Vennie would often kick his feet into the air and bury his face in a pillow and have such thoughts about Mary. After several days of fantasizing , he finally decided to confess to her.
Oh my...what?? A confession....? But she's so much older than you Vennie , she's in the age range of your mother...maybe look for someone in your age..?
But no...! Such differences did not stop the young guy from wanting to make Mary his girlfriend. Thus...one fine Saturday....when he was with her and as usual receiving therapy from Mary about his life and Mary venting to Vennie, he gulped...and finally uttered the words....
"Mary....I....I....love...you....p-p-please go out with me.....I really really like you as a person and everything about you....makes me feel so happy and loved...!"
What???????? Do you even know what you're doing Vennie??
Mary turned red and her heart tightened to the point she felt it hard to breathe.....
"Vennie....I....no.....you know me....and you know...the troubles...I have faced...we...we musn't.."
Vennie felt rejected...
Though strangely, she came closer.....and
Made a deep eye contact with him....then came more closer till her breath was all taken in by his nose....as she slowly moved in and her soft red lush delight lips touched his and pushed it in deeper flattening his lips in the process....then she put her arms over him and made her tongue curl with his....
"Ah...Vennie I'm sorry.....I don't know what I'm doing...but...but maybe a relationship is too much...but...I....like you too darling...but...I...no...maybe...I don't like you like that..."
She then got teary eyed and proceeded to kiss and touch his face more....
"I...don't understand you....Mary..." He spoke
Why go in deeper if you choose not to do anything with him...?
What is going on...??