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Chapter 21 - A moment of weakness

 

Aurelia paced the length of the room, her hands clenched tightly into fists. Every step felt heavy, as though the weight of her thoughts was pulling her down, but she couldn't stop. Not now. Not when the fury inside her had reached its breaking point.

 

Her heart pounded in her chest, adrenaline surging through her veins, every beat amplifying the fire that had been steadily building inside her for weeks. It had started as a flicker of frustration, a nagging feeling that something was wrong. But now, it had grown into something much darker, something she couldn't ignore any longer.

 

"You can't control me, Kaelen!" she spat, her voice shaking with the force of her words. She stopped in front of him, her chest heaving, and stared into his eyes. "You can't keep making decisions for me!"

 

Kaelen stood by the door, his body rigid, his expression unreadable. He had always been the calm one, the rock she could lean on when everything else seemed to be falling apart. But tonight, there was no softness in him. His eyes, though dark and intense, were filled with something she couldn't quite decipher, something that made the pit of her stomach tighten.

 

"You don't understand," Kaelen said, his voice controlled, but the words came out like a warning. "I'm trying to protect you."

 

Aurelia's laugh was bitter, the sound almost mocking. "Protect me?" she repeated, her voice thick with disbelief. "By locking me up? By treating me like a child?"

 

Kaelen's face softened, but his jaw tightened as though trying to hold something back. He stepped forward, his eyes searching hers. "I'm trying to keep you alive, Aurelia. You have no idea what you're up against, and I—"

 

"And you think controlling me will make it any better?" Aurelia interrupted, her voice rising in defiance. "I can handle myself, Kaelen! I'm not some helpless girl. I've had enough of your orders!"

 

Kaelen took a step back, the sudden movement like a physical barrier between them. His voice, now quieter but still heavy with meaning, was almost pleading. "I don't want to hurt you. I never wanted this to happen." He paused, his gaze flickering to the floor before he met her eyes again. "I'm just doing what I think is right."

 

Aurelia's chest tightened, her frustration warping into something more painful. She wanted to scream at him, to demand he stop treating her like a fragile thing. But the weight of his gaze made her falter. She could see the concern in his eyes, the conflict in the way his hands twitched, as if he wanted to reach for her but didn't know how. He cared, she knew that. But she wasn't the same person she had been before, and she could feel the truth of that deep within her.

 

"I can't keep doing this, Kaelen," she said, her voice a little softer now, though still filled with resolve. "I need to make my own choices. I need to be free."

 

Kaelen's face darkened at her words, his gaze flicking briefly to the collar around her neck. His lips pressed into a thin line, his frustration and fear visible. "And what would that freedom look like, Aurelia?" he asked, the question heavy with skepticism. "Running off into the unknown? Facing enemies you don't even understand?"

 

"Maybe," she shot back, her voice sharp with defiance. "But at least it would be my choice."

 

He exhaled a long breath, clearly trying to keep his composure. But Aurelia could see the tension in his shoulders, the way his hands clenched at his sides. She knew he was trying to calm himself, to make her see reason. But she wasn't going to bend.

 

"You don't get it," he muttered, more to himself than to her.

 

"I get it just fine," she said, her voice steady now, more determined than before. "I don't want to live my life in your shadow, Kaelen. I won't let you dictate every step I take."

 

For a moment, Kaelen said nothing, his eyes dark and unreadable. But then, as if something inside him broke, he took another step toward her. His voice, when it came, was quiet but laced with authority. "You're not ready for what's out there. You don't know what you're asking for."

 

Aurelia's eyes narrowed, and she met his gaze without flinching. "You don't get to decide that for me."

 

The silence between them hung heavy in the air, thick with the weight of everything unsaid. Neither of them moved, both of them standing their ground, locked in an unspoken battle of wills.

 

Kaelen's shoulders sagged, the rigidness in his posture easing just a little. "I'm not trying to control you, Aurelia," he said, his voice quieter now, a touch softer than before. "I just don't want to lose you."

 

Her breath caught in her throat. His words, so unexpected, caught her off guard. The anger that had been burning inside her faltered, replaced by something else—something that felt like a crack in the wall she had built around herself. She had never heard him speak like this, never heard him admit to something so raw, so vulnerable.

 

Aurelia's chest tightened, the weight of his words settling deep within her. She looked at him, her heart racing, unsure of what to say or how to respond. The intensity of the moment made her stomach flip. For a brief second, she was taken back to everything they had been, everything they had once shared. But now, with the space between them growing ever wider, she wasn't sure what they were anymore.

 

"I don't want to be a prisoner," she whispered, the words escaping her before she could stop them. She didn't even realize she had said them until she saw the flash of pain in his eyes. "I don't want to feel like I'm trapped."

 

Kaelen's face softened, his features losing some of their harshness. His voice, though still full of that familiar intensity, was almost too soft now. "You're not a prisoner," he said quietly, as if trying to convince himself as much as her. He took a tentative step forward, his eyes never leaving hers. "You're everything to me."

 

Aurelia's heart skipped a beat. She had always seen Kaelen as the protector, the one who held the reins of her life, the one who kept her grounded. But now, here he was, standing in front of her, his voice trembling with something she couldn't quite place.

 

The intensity of the moment made her stomach flip. She didn't know what to say. She had always seen Kaelen as a protector, as the one who held the reins of her life, and now he was standing here, admitting that he didn't want to lose her.

 

Kaelen's hand reached out, his fingers brushing against her wrist with a tenderness that sent a shiver down her spine. The simple touch felt like a confession in itself—more than words could ever convey. Aurelia's breath hitched, and her pulse quickened. She wanted to pull away, to remind herself of everything that had come between them, to remind herself that this—this thing between them—was dangerous. But she couldn't. His presence was magnetic, impossible to ignore.

 

"You're not the only one who feels this," Kaelen murmured, his grip tightening slightly around her wrist. His thumb brushed over her skin in slow, deliberate motions, his voice low and full of an emotion she couldn't quite place. "I don't want to lose you, either."

 

Aurelia's heart raced as her mind spun in a whirlwind of confusion. She couldn't deny the heat between them, the tension that was thick enough to touch. She knew what he was saying—what they were both feeling—but she also knew that they couldn't afford to let this consume them. Not now. Not with everything at stake.

 

Just as she opened her mouth to speak, a loud bang shattered the fragile moment, and they both jerked apart, as though a force beyond their control had yanked them away from each other.

 

The door slammed open with a deafening crack. "Lord Kaelen, we need you," a voice called from the other side, breaking the moment like a hammer striking glass.

 

Kaelen's jaw clenched as his eyes flashed with frustration. Without another word, he turned away from Aurelia, his hands clenching at his sides as he tried to regain his composure. The tension in the room was palpable, but Aurelia stood frozen, her chest heaving, her mind reeling.

 

Kaelen glanced at her over his shoulder, his face hardening again. "We're not done here," he said quietly, the words a low promise.

 

Aurelia pressed her fingers to her lips, her heart still pounding in her chest. She wanted to say something—anything—to break the silence, but the words were lost in her throat. What had just happened? What was she supposed to do with all these emotions swirling inside her?

 

Kaelen turned and walked out, leaving her standing alone in the room, the air between them still crackling with the electricity of what almost was.

 

"We're not done," Aurelia whispered, though Kaelen was already gone. And in that moment, she realized something profound—nothing between her and Kaelen was ever going to be simple again.

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