In the northern streets of Orleans highway street 435, December 25 2016, at the apartment roof of a yellow building, at night there lives a young man, at his rooms only 10 square meter room, fit for one room, many garbage everywhere as if someone just dumb all kinds of trash everywhere, many cans and beers stock empty on the side of the room, dirty clothes that has been there for months, by now, rappers and snacks, all kind of things, at the center of the room a bed, a skinny looking young man playing video game
Adam looks like a shriveled boy, medium black hair that is extremely messy which if you tried to brush it a hundred times it would tangle itself all over again, yet somehow it will still goes down like a circle, wearing a white oversized t shirt with an indie game character on it, with black white stripe shorts.
Its midnight, Adam can only grumbles as he will again have to wake up tomorrow morning dead tired, as he always did…
…what have I been doing all my life, can I really change? Then why haven't I , why do I still do this things, is it to late for me…
Shouts on his head" WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME, why am I like this, I don't want to live like this"
as he continues to play the game, several hours later 1 am at the morning he lays, with dead and dreadful mind clearly forgotten that he needed sleep
[Adam not wanting to do this, yet something or just a feeling of being a slave to this world, as he think fun games, late night scrolling, yet in him wanting to do something more, yet never be able to do it, is it because his to lazy?
Or does his brain has fully wired to be a lazy person who can never struggle to change at all, truly a mess
"this is… sigh haiii" He lays there, his legs tired and doesn't want to move or change, his body frustrated but his soul in turmoil, Adam just lays there after finishing his game struggled and gives up at the last second of pain, continue scrolling on his phone
A desire to be something greater than himself but being trapped of pleasures he cannot overcome, how pitiful, how annoying, insignificant]
"If only I was a different person, I could live in a mansion and never think of anything at all, if only I was just a bit more talented… maybe I could change"
Adam cruelly laughs at himself, as he thought... "Why am I thinking like this? Its all my fault its all my fault" he hits his head over and over, he lays down at his bed again, "Why do I even want to do things that I don't want to, but I have to…"
His stomach grumbles, its painful… as it always has been, he goes to the fridge and find only half open can of food, many meats that clearly expired, and cooked expired noodles, empty
"When did I mess up" he thought as he goes to bed hungry…
As he always did as he fall asleep, spreading his arms on the bed, and legs… and feeling the weight of his thoughts and mind.
-Everything slowly goes blurry and foggy, growing tired as the surroundings of his house distorts like a static discharge of a tv, the wall that was painted with white which worsen the room as there is no cleanliness can be seen, change into bricks of stones, birds chirping, and the wind blows off his face
Adam disoriented "What? Huh…?" He looks around, the surrounding is filled with alchemy bottles, types of equipments, pots and ingredients, many locks of doors and hallways leading to more room, the window which is completely opened wind of the breeze of the window
He quickly, even by his skinny legs looks out of the window, trying to calm himself down. " Huff, this is a dream" he sometimes get lucid dreams which this is entirely not new to him" Out of the window is a vibrant colorful light of shades of texture everywhere you can see, large trees that towers of 200 meters, mountains that float above the ground, purple and pink light biosphere of forest
And much of all, animals different shapes and size, a reptile the size of a massive building, or gigantic bug. another.one with a large neck and tough rocky texture with the head which pales in comparison of how gigantic it is walking on the forest than t " Hahaha! Nah, I cant do this…" In his thoughts, or even dreams he could never create something like this, his eyes shine brightly, eyelids dilated.
As he look, he was standing on a large island of a tower on the sky, which connected with chains and bridges floating to other island, and at the bottom a large biosphere of a continent, the flora color changes everywhere you look.
Adam tries to pinch himself, and it hurts "Ow! Huh? That hurts, I usually wake up when I do that"
"What in the world?" He thinks, seriously this really cant be real right?! Like if you were to see a completely real changer seeing the room right in front of your eyes, or blinking eyes exactly change shape and distort into a place of fantasy like structure
The room is made out of stones and wooden make of inscriptions, patterns and drawings of many kind, dusty it seems no one lives here for a really long time.
"A duck!!! Why am I like this, right after finishing school and thinking that im finally free, and im hallucinating"
Adam cant believe of his predicament, like its not like its his fault that he was born like this surely not, maybe because he just doesn't realise that can change, that there will be many things that he can do
One of the fundamentals of humanity, trying to change but knowing how or why, feeling sicken of yourself, gauging even feeling worthless, and not knowing why, not knowing why, or how to become better, and worse you cant really ask for help for everyone experience this hell and almost everyone failed.
Thinking, 'If I cant do something, might as well explore, im not this lazy that im just gonna stay on this room, when im literally getting crazy'
Adam continued to explore the tower, going down the deep pit, and what he sees break his mind even further, astonish? Silence…
Before him stood countless portals, each one on a strange blend of materials and styles, some were made of entirely out of rocks, chunk of flesh, steam punks, swords, the root of a tree, a ruin purple portals and even more from bizzare to unfamilliar substances
His eyes dilated, he looked around the room, it was a hollow marble of white room, he looks back to where he started, there still made of stone and stairs where came from.
Adam walked around many of the portals, his curiosity that has been sleeping for a long time awaken
With just a single touch, he was sucked into the portal. When he landed, he founded himself in a city long abandoned, no living things can be found, or maybe they are hidimg somewhere, and even what?
A mechanical metropolis. The city as if floating sky high foundation of walls town level size that acted as a foundation, rising high like a tower, buildings in strange, geometric patterns, and square like rooms with metal or concrete, pipes through every corner of the city
Strangely despite the absence of inhabitants, bizzare engines continued to hum, as if the city is alive