I am a simple person. I do not ask for much, only everything or nothing at all. Half-hearted love has no place in my world, and lukewarm affection feels colder than indifference. I give as much as I receive, maybe even more, because that is the only way I know how to love. And if I cannot love with my whole heart, if I cannot be met with the same intensity, then I would rather not love at all.
It's not that I am demanding. It's just that I know what it means to give and be left empty. To pour all that I am into someone's hands, only to watch them let it slip through their fingers like it meant nothing. I have loved with the kind of devotion that writes poetry into existence, that bends reality to fit another person into the spaces of my life. But in the end, love that is not met with equal weight is nothing but slow self-destruction.
I have learned that love should never feel like convincing someone to stay. It should never feel like waiting in the cold for someone who never promised to return. But that is how it has always been for me, giving, giving, giving, until I become nothing but the echoes of my own affections.
I used to believe in the beauty of compromise, in the idea that love could be patient and kind even when it hurt. But now, I understand that love, real love, is not something I should beg for. It is not something I should exhaust myself proving that I deserve. If someone cannot meet me where I stand, if they cannot hold my heart with the same careful hands that I offer them, then I will not give at all.
Because I know what it feels like to love without restraint, to surrender completely. And I know what it feels like to be left with nothing but silence in return.
So it's all or nothing. No in-betweens. No waiting. No hoping that maybe, just maybe, this time will be different. Because love should never feel like waiting for someone to catch up. Love should never feel like drowning alone, Love should be a home that shelters you from emotional storms trying to tear you down..